4/12/04 7:32 P.M.
Listening to: Aikawa Nanase "Konna ni Ai Shi"
Feeling:
Aaaaaaaaah I love this song "Konna ni Ai Shi" by Aikawa Nanase it's so beautiful, like a Christmas love song *o* it gets me into a teary and spiritual mode, it makes me want to start writing my music!!! I have original songs constantly going through my head but I don't know how to write them down!!! Aaaaaaaaah!!~ But I will soon! Next year I am taking Choir and beginning piano. I am beginning to believe that becoming a musician is what I am meant to do in life. Of course I do thank Emi for "getting me out of the closet" with this, I was scared to death to sing by myself until she sang with me, I guess you have that magical touch Emi-chan ^_~ I'm not gonna say "if" I'm not an "if girl" I'm a "when I" girl so when I become a musician in Japan I hope to become huge like Utada Hikaru, I want her popularity, I don't think I would want to be as huge as Ayumi Hamasaki though >_< too much work. I will write music like artists Aikawa Nanase, Sugizo, Utada Hikaru, Raphael, Ayumi Hamasaki (not her voice though >_<, but her rock'in techno remixes ^o^V), and with a splash of styles from artists Blam Honey, Dir en Grey, and Madonna. I think I would mostly focus on music like Sugizo's and Utada Hikaru's they both write their own music and they are both brilliant at it!
Anyways, speaking of Utada Hikaru, I learned some pretty cool new stuff about her yesterday, one of her favorite movies is "Unbreakable" which I would officially call my favorite movie, it's so brilliant, but it takes patience and an open mind to appreciate it. She also has a new single comming out that is to be released on the 21st of April, I'm so excited, it's called "Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro" you can pre-order it at: http://yesasia.com . This is the first song Utada has released in about 15 months so I'm bouncing on the walls with excitement! You can hear the song at: http://www.sakurasong.com So I am gonna support her, of course and buy the single as soon as I can, but I can't till after Sakura con, oh well, I'll be a few days late XDD. I also heard that Utada Hikaru will be releasing her first single here in America!!! I'm sooooooo excited! The world of J-pop and America are combining! She was also at the world premeire for the "Matrix Reloaded" O_o I downloaded a clip of it at: http://www.utada-online.net I've always thought that Utada has a weird talking voice, and I think this clip truly shows my opinion.
Ayumi Hamasaki also just released a new commercial for Panasonic she advertises a PM700MD which is a sterio system, I guess Panasonic has a new line of products or a new name for their commercials because Ayumi says "Eye Love Music" at the end, and it was below her in a logo form O_o? Actually now that I think of it, I think it's Panasonic's new catch line. Anyways, the song is called "Game" and it's very catchy and I hope it will be released soon, and I hope it comes with more than one remix other than the acoustic versions like in her "Moments" single, don't get me wrong, that single was great too I bought it actually, but I miss her singles where there were 6-10 remixes on the single ;_; I really miss that... You can get the commercial on the Panasonic website at: http://panasonic.jp/compo/ad/700md/index.html Enjoy!
Today Val and I made great progress on our costumes! We almost have all the pieces of our kimonos cut out and Val sewed the main piece of her kimono. I also carved out the pieces of Sesshoumaru's spike piece and glued it together, the last thing it needs is it's metalic coating and it's done. Hopefully she'll get to come over again tomorrow so we can work on it more, we may be done by Wed of next week, I hope so, because we are going to do a photo shoot on Thursday. I think we are making great progress and I'm not in the least bit doubtful anymore about getting our costumes done on time.
One bad thing happened to me today, but I'm not going to dwel on it, cuz that'll just cause depression, but it ends up that I got my drivers education date mixed up, I thought the first day was this Wed, but in fact the first day was today O_O So I got a call from a lady who told me that because I missed that day it counts as one of my 3 days that I'm allowed to take off from that class! O_O;;; But I'm not worried cuz I don't get sick that often. So tomorrow will be my first day of drivers education, I'm so excited and I can't wait to drive!! -_-b. Another thing, everyone around me seems to be getting sick T^T it makes me feel guilty knowing that I haven't gotten sick yet, my mom has an ammonia and a sinus infection, my sister has a migrane headache and a cold, and Val has two ear infections!! I sorta wanna get sick now, hehe, and me going to Sakura con will most likely bring that, because one is so close to so many people there, how can one not get sick?
But for the most part I have been very happy with how my life has been going lately, my attitude has certianly changed a lot in the past few weeks. About a month ago I was a physical and emotional wreck! I finally figured out what was causing me all this greif, my dad explained to me that I am a very unorganized person when it comes to time, so I decided to set up my callendar in my Yahoo account and I have printed it off, now I know what I have to do and when, I feel so much better now. I also have so much to look forward too, and I'm sure even after those things are over with I will find something else very soon ^o^ life is great stuff man and I am greatful for every minute of it!!!
4/10/04 10:40 P.M.
Listening to: Ayumi Hamasaki ("Moments" single)
Feeling:
Other: Favorites update, joined more fanlistings
let's see, I've had a lot of fun the past couple of days, Thursday Val came over and we started working on our costumes for Sakura con, I don't know if I've stated who we are going to be yet, but I guess I'll tell you now, Val is going as Sesshoumaru from Inuyasha, Emi is going as Sai from Hikaru no Go, and I'm going as Kenshin from Rurouni Kenshin, we are going to be the "Long-haired-kimono-wearing-bishounen". Anyways, we didn't get very far because we played Super Smash Brothers Melee and then we couldn't figure out the sewing maching, I couldn't remember how to put the string from underneath to come up. So by the time my mom got home we were watching the 3rd Matrix and we were totally sucked into it, thus we only cut out the main pieces to Val's kimono in 5 hours >_>;;; but this week and next week I only have to work 2-3 days per week, thus, a lot of time to work on everything, we have everything we need too, except for our swords, material for my socks, nails for Val, and one other thing... I can't remember what it is. So hopefully this Monday we are going to seriously start working on it. I was going to have Val come over today but my mom had plans
When I woke up this morning my mom was like "help us out, we need to get this house clean for the party tonight" and I was like "WHAT?" I guess my mom had planned to invite some of her friends over about a week ago and she never told me, so I had to cancel my plans.... grrrrrrrrrrrrr and we really need to get our costumes done T^T Anyways, so I cleaned and I had to sweep outside, and when I was I think Emi's white car passed by and honked at me, I'm not sure though, haha and I was wearing a red and white stripped T-shirt with matching leg warmers XD I was inspired by the Fruits book Emi and I were looking at the day before. BACK TO TODAY'S PARTY... After work my mom picked me up and my aunti Michael was there in the front seat!! ^o^V I love her to death she's the funniest person in the world!~ We picked up some food and then went home to about 15 karaoke obsessed wild guests. They were all eating and stuff, chatting about who knows what. About an hour later, that's when the real "fun" began, they all sang on my mom's karaoke machine, and I'm sorry, but some of these people need to go back home and practice before they come back. Dang, I think I critisize too much at times ^.^;; maybe it's cuz I'm a semi-perfectonist. So, a little later they asked me to sing a song, so I sang "Endless Sorrow" by Ayumi Hamasaki cuz I left my instumental collection in my locker at school, cuz I brought it for the tallent show, I needed to warm up my voice by singing a bunch of different songs. So yeah, they wanted it to be a Japanese song, so I was kinda limited to old Ayumi songs, and I didn't warm up so I sounded like crap, but none of em could tell, my aunt was even crying, just like she did the last time I sang in front of her, she's such a softy, but then again, so am I, if I were in her shoes I'd probably cry too XD. The party finally wrapped itself up around 10:00.
Yesterday was really fun too, Val and I went to Uajimaya to go exchange her kimono for another one and to get some pieces of our costumes, I bought my wooden sandals and I decided to get Ayumi's new single "Moments" which is a very cool song, the composer changed her voice so is sounds semi robotic kind of like Cher in her song "Beleive". We bought some candy and stuff too. The coolest part though was comming home cuz Dave (Val's mom's friend, the one driving us to Uajimayah) allowed us to listen to my single, and adults who aren't into something different that a teenager is into most likely wouldn't allow something like that to happen, but he was very suave and didn't care. Val's "sister" was there with us too, she's actually Val's step sister, I think... her name's Brittney, I remembered that easily cuz that's my middle name ^.^
Later that day I called up Emi to see how she was doing cuz I had been calling her 3 days before that and she wasn't there, I was getting worried T^T, it ends up that she was a little confused about how she felt about her, what was it, about a week long boyfriend, she "broke up with him" (even though they weren't really going out in the first play) that day at school. Back to calling her, we hung out with her fam at Dash Point state park for about an 1 1/2 hours, we talked about stuff, it was really fun, and I got to make a bit of a better connection with her cousin Gaven (hehe is that correct?). He's really cool, he goes to my school, a freshman, but a cool one at that, and he likes anime and he goes to the anime club at my school (which by the way is barely running at this point due to my VCR being dumb and due to me being to busy with school and work to plan anything for it.) It's sooo cool, I had noticed earlier that Emi and him have a lot in common, and in strange ways too, they have the same mannerisims and same style of speach and fashion sense lol. It wasn't until Emi herself told me that she agreed that I really began to see it.
After the park time, we went back to her place and started signing up for DeviantART but the site is stupid and limits accounts to one account per internet connection, and Emi signed me up first, so she has to wait until she finds another computer to sign-up with T_T. We looked at her copy of the Fruits book, which is the coolest thing to hit this planet, it's a book full of street fashion photos in Japan, the fashion shown is called "Decora" which means "heavily decorated" it's a fashion in Japan that is in the process of becoming big again, it started and jumped the shark around 1996. The most common traights of this fashion are layers, bright colors, and individual expression. It is fashion that is highly discriminated here in America, especially at my school, if it wasn't I would totally dress like the people in the Fruits book every day! So, we looked at that, and like I said before I was inspired to wear something different today.
When I got home I started to fool around with the computer and I chatted etc, etc, I went to bed at 2:00 a.m but I couldn't fall asleep till 4:00 a.m and I knew that was bad because birds were comming out to sing their morning tunes. But I eventually fell asleep, I had too much on my mind, I have so many things I have to plan for for the next couple of weeks, it overwhealming. I start my drivers education class this Wed, my life should get even more interesting from then on. TTYL! 1:30 a.m.
4/4/04 6:11 P.M.
Listening to: BoA ("Love & Honesty" album)
Feeling:
Well... this sucks I guess in the process of saving things at my mom's house at at my dad's house I somehow lost a journal entry... Oh well! A LOT has happened since my last entry. I tried out for my school's tallent show, and I decided to sing "Forgiveness" by Ayumi Hamasaki because I can sing that song exaclty like she sings it only better! 21 people tried out for the tallent show and the judges were only allowed to pick 9 and I was one of them!! One thing about this tallent show that got me really peeved was the amount of organization there was, there wasn't any and before I tried out there were no guide lines dealing with what we could and could not do. Because of this, one girl couldn't try out for the show cuz she didn't have the instrumental for the song she wanted to sing >^< I wanted to slap Mr. Hepworth (he's the MAJOR hentai P.E. teacher at my school) and the music teacher (I can't remember his name, but he's a real jeark too), I mean could they pick anyone better to do the judging for the try outs? O_O geeeeeeeez. Anyways, because there was no organization I was in a panic because I then learned that my song had to be cut from 5m 46s to 4m 0s so I called Emi on stressful day of her's, I didn't know of course, but the last thing she needed was to hear me request something from her that required her uncle's help. I asked her to do this on Monday I believe and I wasn't sure if she could do it or not, so come Wed night after work I actually announced to my mom that I didn't think I was gonna be able to be in the tallent show cuz my song wasn't ready, but my "knight in shinning armor" came, Emi came an hour later and gave me the cut version of the song!!! So O.K. I have the song now, but now I have to practice the cut version and I still have to learn some lyrics! I managed to do it, but I had to call my boss during my 5th period on Thurstay to request that day off, she was really mad at me, but I don't understand why cuz I requested that day off twice before that! I got the day off and went straight home after school and practiced like nuts because the tallent show was the next day on Friday. Next morning my voice was CRAP but I still warmed up all through first period in the bathroom and then my voice sounded perfect, I can tell I have warmed up well when my voice sounds more Ayumi's when she talkes, more grainy. I was sooooooooo nervous, but when everyone started to fill the gym (the whole school and staff) I started to calm down for some reason. When it was my turn to sing I was shaking a little but I got over it in about 10s and I did a perfect job! Kii-chan, Val, Riri, and my friend Kenji were all holding up a sign that said "Miyuki" and they were yelling when my name was called ^o^ (thanks guys!!). When I hit the really high notes in the song half the crowd stood up and cheered for me, when I did the final high not the cheering was going for so long that I started the next virse and they were still slightly going. I bowed at the end XD
After the show I still had periods 3-6 to do, during 3rd period my class didn't do anything, but everyone came to greet me and some people treated my like a celebrity! This one girl was like "OMG!!! I HAD NO IDEA YOU COULD SING LIKE THAT YOU ARE INCREDIBLE!!!" and I could do nothing but put my head down and bit and say "thank you" over and over ^.^;;;; random people kept giving my hugs in the halls and telling me that they hope I win. Finally the moment I was waiting for, in my 6th period they announced the winners, they picked 4, I didn't win... I was dying inside. After all that extra work and all the cheering and signs I had going I didn't get squat! I'm still a little mad, but I'm over it now, I still have one more year to try, next year, my senior year. Three of the winners I felt deserved to win except for this one girl, I'm sorry, she didn't have any tallent, she did a "Scottish dance" in a salior outfit with ballerina shoes and all she did was do this sort of river dance thing and a bunch of hopps around the gym, she didn't even get the croud cheering or clapping or nothing, the dance she did, anyone could learn it in a week >_> *throws computer screen*. At the same time the judges they picked weren't the best people ether, they choose 3 English teachers and 1 math teacher, I think that's who they were, what do they know about tallent!!
Besides that, I went shopping later on that day and bought myself my first truly expensive one thing, a digital camera. It's a Sony Cyber-shot U it's about 1" thick 1.25" tall and 2.25" wide, it's very tiny but very cool, it was on sale at Target (the only store) for $130, it used to be $200!! So knowing that I had already saved up to buy a digital camera in time for Sakura con I had to buy it, it even has a little screen I think it's a little smaller than 1". So getting that made my day even better!
Yesterday I went to my uncle Jamie's B-day party, he turned 40! I had a blast there, my cousins got a new trampline so we bounced on that for a few hours, that is until I bounced higher than my own height on my bumb and then heard my head, neck, and back crunch like a beatle, that's when I stopped. At the party there were all kinds of people there were my dad's dune buggy friends Mike, his wife Nicole, Mark, his wife Carol, and Dave. My grandmother came, the one who's almost exactly like me in every way, in the strangest of ways too, Emi still needs to meet her! About half of the Kirby's were there too, my aunt's family of 14 wild red heads >_> they are a lot of fun, that is until they get drunk, but even then they aren't violent or anything, but just really wild and weird O_o I got a lot of pictures, but I don't have time to post them right now, my dad need to use this computer in like 10mins.
Last thing, I was supposed to work today but because one of my boss' was really dumb they forgot to tell me that they changed my schedual, and my dad thinks that she did that because I requested a day off on such short notice, so she got mad. I didn't care that much, but it sucked for my dad cuz I had to call him back right away and tell him about the whold situation *grumble* but oh well, that gave me a chance to work on my Ayumi Hamasaki "Far Away" fanlisting, which is now up! Talk to you all later!
