7/5/04 12:51 P.M.
Listening to: Ayumi Hamasaki "UNITE!" single
Feeling:
Well, I'm sitting down eat'in my breakfast and all right now, and yes, I guess I've been enjoying my Ayu singles lately. I've discovered new remix favorites cuz I haven't given some the time of day. Especially her "Duty" remixes on her "Surreal" single.
Anyways, yesterday was a lot of fun, I went over to the Denny's to celebrate the big Fourth. The Denny's are one of my aunt's sister's family and the family consists of Matt Denny, this guy that I used to be obsessed about, every time I saw him I'd freeze, it was a true infatuation that I had. I wouldn't consider myself in love, I've only had serious infatuations, I don't think I have truly been in love yet. Anyways, he was there, and he didn't do anything for me, he doesn't interest me at all anymore, it's probably cuz he got caught selling/doing drugs :X I used to not talk to him, but I decided to stop that and I talked a bit with him during the time that he was there, but he snuck out of the party without his parent's permission. Hehe... OH! another thing just to clarify... he is NOT blood related to me at all, he is barely family even by marrage, so my crush was compleatly healthy at the time.
We lit fireworks and talked for hours, my dad showed off his finished dune buggy and everyone got a ride, we ate BBQ and fruit cakes, you know, the whole deal. Then we drove home in my dad's dune buggy, that's was pretty fun, cuz we could see all kinds of fireworks. Plus my dad's dune buggy gets a photo shoot with HotBW the magazine!!!! Cuz according to some, he has the best dune buggy in this area, so it's gonna be in a magazine! So look for "Randy Fountain" with a blue dune buggy in that mag if you are a fan (and if I become famous that'll be a collector's item *hint hint*).
Last night I also had the best dream! It was so beautiful, haunting, inspiring, romantic, aaaaaaaah it was wonderful, I'll try to put it in words the best that I can. How do I start... well... There is this BIG castle on an island surrounded by the sea with some other land nearby and there is always beautiful sunsets on the castle. It looked like the castle that Garnet lives in in Final Fantasy 9 here is a pic, it's to the far right http://www.fantasysquare.com/pic/ff9/floating_castle.jpg it had this HUGE tower. At the top of this tower there were shelves and shelves of potions and there was this witch (only blonde and beautiful) who was making a potion to create a deadly dragon. There wasn't a floor at the top of the tower ether, so everything floated and the room was a lavender color and lights were flashing in all directions, anyways, one thing about the potion was that if she told anyone about the dragon/potion then a curse would be put on her and the person who finds out, the curse would be death, eventually spirits would come to haunt the person and then kill them.
In the dream me, and two other girls and two other guys were some sort of protection team for the queen (who ends up being the witch) The queen ends up telling one of the girls and she dies, and me and the other girl both end up falling in love with the REALLY beautiful guy on our team, he has long lower-back-length black hair, pale skin and black eyes, and a perfect physique. So one day the three of us decided to search the castle for enemies and we all see the witch with her dragon, and this dragon is the scariest thing, it looks like a regular dragon, only it was about the size of two humans, it was red, and had glowing eyes that were in a face that was half dragon, half skull. When we saw it, all these spirits that looked like skulls in ripped cloth came out of the dragon and swirlled around us, thus we were cursed to die soon. Me and the girl instantly passed out and the guy was on one knee and tried to start throwing magic at the queen, but the passed out. We woke up a few hours later in our sleeping rooms, it was early evening and the girl and I went outside the castle to look at the sunset and we started talking about the guy and about how much we loved him. But for some reason, we weren't enemies and we weren't compeating, it was almost like we wanted to share him.
(Now these part get's a little sensual, but there is no sex or nudity, but some making out) The guy was at one of the docks resting his arms on the edge looking at the sea and the sunset (the most perfect sunset you can imagine). We both approached him and he looked deadly sick (but still VERY BEAUTIFUL) he was dying. This made the both of us VERY sad (duh) so we decided to perform some sort of ritual to ease the pain, we had to kiss him a WHOLE bunch, so the other girl kissed his face a lot and I took off his spiky choker necklace and started to kiss his neck, this was the most inspiring part to me, because he started to cry (awwwwwwwwwwww) for two reasons, one because the healing was making him feel better and I think he knew how much the two of us loved him, and he was the kind of guy who has never felt things like that, he was the kind of guy who has been neglected his whole life, not allowed to feel things or to be loved, so it was a very big thing for him to be healed in such a way. Then the girl and I started crying, we stopped and then he disappeared, never to return, we sacrificed being able to see him again, just to save him, then the girl and I hugged, the end.
So yeah, I could tell I was crying in my sleep cuz I woke up with really sore eyes. Besides that, I have had a great day so far and I'm gonna go see Spider Man 2 pretty soon, I think I'll enjoy it cuz reviewers have been saying that it's the best superhero movie ever, I don't think it's gonna be THAT good, but I know it'll still be good. So anyways, ttyl!
7/4/04 12:19 A.M.
Listening to: Ayumi Hamasaki "Surreal" single
Feeling:
Hehe it's been waaaaaaaaaaaay too long since I have written in here. Well, basically I have gotten out of school and I now get to relax, this year of school has been the most difficult year of school for me yet! I was literally close to loosing is, there was this one day in May where I almost gave up, but I remembered that this was only one day of my life and that I'd wake up the next morning to a new beautiful sunrise, and I remembered that there is a god, and that there is nothing to be afraid of. That got me through the rest of the year, I cried that night from so much happiness with how my life is, I couldn't be happier, and I've felt this way for about 3-4 years now.
With school out of the way I am now able to do more with my friends, in the two weeks that I have been out of school Emi and I have hung out about 5 times, and I've hung out with Sean 2 times, and I'm glad that I get to hang out with him, cuz I think I have missunderstood him a bit and I feel bad... but I think I'll explain soon, I haven't gotten the chance to, he probably knows it's gonna come too cuz he'll read this *waves* "hi Sean". Anyways... I also get to update my site and work on some oekaki's too, before one week ago, I haven't done an oekaki in about 4-5 months, but surprizingly I didn't have to warm up that much to get right back at it.
I was also going to go to summer school this summer, but I decided to skip cuz I need the time off and I can make it up later. I know it's not good to stall, but like I said I was on the verge on insanity.
As of late, I have gotten really into the website Deviantart (http://www.deviantart.com) it's a site where people can share artwork of all kinds, it's nice because you get to see the opinions and hear good critisism from others, plus you get to explore art by other people besides yourself. You can visit my Deviantart site at: (http://gogirlanime.deviantart.com) please comment *glomps* I've posted most of my realism stuff, and most of the good artwork in my IB art class artbook.
I'm also very excited because there is a contest at AHS (Ayumi Hamasaki Sekai) for Ayu's new single "Inspire" and the song ROCKS it's the coolest song she's done since "ourselves" it's very good and I know it'll be a hit. The contest is a one page Ayu anime contest, I'm going to draw shots of the Rainbow PV in one compilation. I hope I win!
Well, that's all I can really think of right now, I'm really sleepy, that's probably why, hehe, I'm gonna go to bed now, g'night!
